Screaming in the Car

Do you ever scream in the car?  It is the perfect place to let it all out.  I am sure cars passing me wonder what it is I am doing, but I have found screaming to relax and focus myself.

I found myself screaming after I left the dietitian yesterday.  I am in a wonderful place in my life.  I have completed EVERYTHING that I need to complete to have surgery.  I lost the required weight, gave blood, met a dietitian, went to monthly support meetings, had MANY tests done, and saw many doctors all who have given there OK to have weight loss surgery.  Believe it or not the process had MANY ups and downs, but yet I wouldn't take back any of it.  YES I was upset when I found out I had another hoop to jump through, but now I can say I am glad for the process.  I have succeeded and proud to say I DID IT!!!  So why was I screaming??  I was overwhelmed that I have completed the process and scared about surgery, but yet excited to change my life permanently. 

Surgery is not the END to this process, just the middle point.  I am excited to begin the second phase. 

Sooooooo----- HERE WE GO!!!

P.S.  Try screaming in the car... I highly suggest it!!  :)

One more thing....

I found out that my doctor still wanted me to see a pulmonologist since I had marked down asthma on my original visit sheet.  I have an inhaler but haven't used it since 1996!!!  I passed my pulmonary function test with flying colors, but he still wanted me to have clearance.  Understandable but frustrating.  I thought I was done with everything, but I guess what is one more month at this point.  I have the rest of my life in front of me, so no worries.

Scheduled an appointment for this last Friday.  Met with the doctor all of five minutes.  Explained how I haven't had any issues in 16 years, listened to me breath and check my test scores.  He replied that he had zero fears of me having issues with surgery.  He gave me clearance and was going to fax his statement to my doctor. 

So again...... I wait.  Fingers crossed this was the LAST step :)  I am ready to move forward. 

Waiting!

Waiting............................waiting...................................waiting!!!!